Monday, 26 December 2016

BLOGMAS #12 - 2016 Memories

2016 was an odd year for me.   Half of it was spent trying to save my life, and the other was filled with so much greatness I want to burst with joy just thinking about it!

2016 was an odd year for me. 

Half of it was spent trying to save my life, and the other was filled with so much greatness I want to burst with joy just thinking about it!

I started this blog in 2016 and it has to be one of the greatest decisions I have ever made. The anxiety of worrying what people think of me has almost disappeared. I'm no longer embarrassed about the little things, in fact, I am now never embarrassed about saying what I feel or think. I have people who I thought hated me in school come up to me and say they love reading my blog. It still baffles me now how people actually enjoy my writing. I don't think I'll ever come to grips with it!

Anyway! All of the bad things that have happened, there has been so much good to override it. Here are just a few of the good memories from 2016 I'm locking away to remember forever.

2016 was the year...

I left my first ever job to work in my dream one.

Next wasn't just a crappy job in retail. Those that know me will know how soppy and sentimental I am but that place is filled with love and family. I just can't express it. Every single one of those girls and boys mean something special to me, and the four years worth of memories we had were like no other! Often they include a mass alcohol intake and a ride home in a meat wagon, ( or in someone else's bed...). I wouldn't change any of it for the world and I'm now left with friends for a lifetime.

The Typeface Group offered me my dream job. I can now say I'm a writer for a living. I'm finally doing something I've always wanted since I was a little girl and to have the chance to grow whilst making new friendships, well what more could I ask for? I can't thank them enough for taking a chance with me because I have now grown so much confidence thanks to the team there.

I came off of anti-depressants.

Now, I said this post wasn't going to be negative and it won't be, but 2016 was also a very difficult time for me. A lot of it was spent crying in my room, hating myself and contemplating ending it all. That sounds dramatic but unfortunately, it's true.

I'm still down sometimes, but I have now learned that you can control your feelings and thoughts. I can stop myself feeling crap by spending time with friends and family, making memories instead of isolating myself. I no longer rely on tablets and never will again, my brain is MINE!

I reunited with old friends.

This one is my favourite memory of 2016. When you leave school it becomes quite difficult to stay in touch with old friends, but you just have to realise that, in reality, nothing changes. These people will always be your friends, whether you lose touch or not, eventually you will find your way back to them.

I'm fortunate to live in a town where everyone knows everyone, which may seem like a negative but to me, it's one of the greatest things about where I live. You see old school pals on nights out, and drunkenly catch up reminding them 'We must meet up soon' words which will repeat on another night out the very next week!

I had a great group of friends in school, a mixture of boys and girls and to this day I still love them all very much. We even had our own nickname 'Down the Common' and having never gone to a common, I still to this day don't know why we called ourselves that!

It was great to reunite, and it was like nothing ever changed. I love these guys and always will.

I learned to love myself

This isn't exactly a memory, but it is something I'm grabbing with both hands and holding on to tightly. Loving yourself is so important and I've spent most of this year expressing how crucial it is. All of the great things about you will counteract the bad. You are you and nothing is truer than that.

Happy Boxing Day! I'm hanging out of my arse and reminiscing the embarrassing memories from this weekends antics...


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