Sunday, 24 July 2016

Learning to Love Yourself

I've always liked to think of myself as an open book. In fact, I crave the idea. When you hear the name Shannon Valentine, I am almost sure that most of you will know even the littlest of details.

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I wanted to make something clear. Not just to the people that know me, but more importantly to myself. 


I've always liked to think of myself as an open book. In fact, I crave the idea. When you hear the name Shannon Valentine, I am almost sure that most of you will know even the littlest of details. That my favourite animal is an elephant, my favourite foods are chicken nuggets and Oreos. You'll probably know it all. And for some reason, as much as I tell myself that I am open, I'm only showing the parts of me I want people to see.


I don't want to do that anymore because it's not me being truthful to myself. I am 20-years-old, I want to stop worrying about what others think of me, what people from school, whom I haven't seen since I was a naive 16-year-old girl, think of me. The funny thing is, is that most of them do like me as a person, I just refuse to believe in it. 


When I was younger, I truly didn't know who I was or would become. Since turning 20, I like to think I'm almost there. 



I've always liked to think of myself as an open book. In fact, I crave the idea. When you hear the name Shannon Valentine, I am almost sure that most of you will know even the littlest of details.


I am loyal, I am truthful, and I am good.


Do you think I sound vain? That I love myself? The second statement is true. I LOVE MYSELF. I love that I have the biggest guilty conscience because it means I have too much good in me to do so wrong. I love my sense of humour, and despite the fact I am sensitive, I guess it shows I care. I love that I get excited when I have bought gifts for people, taking the time to find truly something they will love and treasure. I love all of those things because they all add up to make the person I have grown up to be, and that is exactly what you should all believe. 


Even the negative things about yourself, there is always good behind them. I think every girl and boy goes through an insecure stage in their life, and of course, the media has a big say in that issue. As one of my dear friends, Rebecca, once said, '' How can you expect for someone to be perfect, if you are not willing to feel and look the same way.'' She doesn't mean this in a negative way... Most girls are looking for a guy with a six pack, but do they have one themselves? Probably not. I am guilty of this; I am searching for the perfect man who ticks every box when I should be looking at myself and working on that mission first.



I've always liked to think of myself as an open book. In fact, I crave the idea. When you hear the name Shannon Valentine, I am almost sure that most of you will know even the littlest of details.

I'm not telling you to lower your standards, never do that. You should want the best of the best, whether that be looks or personality, you should love yourself enough to want to be with the best version of somebody, but that means you have to feel like the best version of yourself too. 

I must admit I feel like a hypocrite writing this post. I am far from the best version of myself, but I'm going to get there and knowing so will do you the world of good. 



I still have weight to lose, and a mental illness to kick up the backside...


This post isn't supposed to be about finding love with someone else; it's about finding the love within yourself. Life is far too short to be hating on that 5lbs you put on after eating too much pizza. Did you enjoy the pizza? Good, enjoy your favourite treats and spend the day binge-watching your favourite show. Why the fuck shouldn't you do so. 


Exercise because it makes you feel good, not because you feel like you have too. Wear your favourite shirt, even if you've been seen in it a few times that month already. If you want to go a few days without makeup, do so. I love makeup, but I will no longer hide behind it. 


I've always liked to think of myself as an open book. In fact, I crave the idea. When you hear the name Shannon Valentine, I am almost sure that most of you will know even the littlest of details.


I am slowly learning that your twenties should be a time of selfishness. Don't be frightened if you're not in the place you want to be. You still have time.


xoxo



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